sinking deep

Standing here in your presence
In a grace so relentless
I am won by perfect love
Wrapped within arms of heaven
In a peace that last forever
Sinking deep in mercy's sea


I'm wide awake, drawing close, stirred by grace
And all my heart is yours
All fear removed, I breathe you in, I lean into
Your love, oh your love


When I'm lost you pursue me
Lift my head to see your glory
Lord of all, So beautiful
Here in you I find shelter
Captivated by the splendor
Of your face, my secret place

I'm wide awake, drawing close, stirred by grace
And all my heart is yours
All fear removed, I breathe you in, I lean into
Your love, oh your love

Your love so deep, Is washing over me
Your face is all I seek, you are my everything
Jesus Christ, You are my one desire
Lord hear my only cry, to know you all my life

I'm wide awake, drawing close, stirred by grace
And all my heart is yours
All fear removed, I breathe you in, I lean into
Your love, oh your love
by hillsong
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Lead me to the cross

Savior I come
Quiet my soul remember
Redemption's hill
Where Your blood was spilled
For my ransom
Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost

Lead me to the cross
Where Your love poured out
Bring me to my knees
Lord I lay me down
Rid me of myself
I belong to You
Lead me, lead me to the cross

You were as I
Tempted and trialed
Human
The word became flesh
Bore my sin and death
Now you're risen

Everything I once held dear
I count it all as lost


To your heart
To your heart
Lead me to your heart
Lead me to your heart
By Hillsong

Questions

Look kindly at the torn disguise

A truer she is tentative below the surface.

A little bit of madness is also probable here.

She hasn’t eaten for days.

But I am aware,

What lies below there,

Is a monster I too am afraid of.

If she gets out.

If she stays.

Out of bravery or cowardice

Look , won’t you, kindly at her madness.

She is likely to be a beautiful one.

Perplexed slightly by whose creeds to follow.

A little insane perhaps,

Especially when she probes at celestial things.

Her perceptions founded on unsophisticated science.

The kind one would not pain

their faculties to analyse.

 

Writer’s private thoughts:

I mean, you are very busy peasants.

Hoarding gold,

Saving your marriages,

And satiating everyday busyness with football, ice-cream or a holiday excursion.

And truthfully,

She is a naïve little hobbit.

So I’ll excuse you.

But I hope you will finish the poem.

 

Whose world is this?

For what purpose am I designed?

To hoard gold?

To qualify for matrimony?

To satiate everyday busy-ness with folks?

Where are we going?

To whom are we going?

Are we ready?

Do we even care?

Are we fools?

To go on living,

With vague answers about our end.

Who will pray?

The ground is very dry.

The sun stripped out all the water from her shed.

What now remains is

dead soil.

Silent.

ungiving.

Empty.

 

We cry at the sky,

that it may crack a little,

and appease the draught.

 

Who will feed our crops?

What about seeds we planted yesterday?

Will the sowers be abased?

Will we eat from our land again?

 

But mostly,

Who will pray,

While the hypocrites mourn...

Funeral blues

by W H Auden

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message 'He is Dead'.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

12 years

A giggler at heart.
A very pretty face
A perfect reminder of Jesus.
A mother of many  miscarriages.

In a permanent exam, at home.
One tiny lapse,
the penalty:
A torturous slap, a preliminary hell.

 

The husband.
A kind spirit.
A gentleman.
Yes, a sauve hypocrite indeed.

It has been 12 years.
12 years,
and that bustard
has not pleaded sorry.
12 years.
endurance has been thoroughly tested.
tonight though,
will be critical.
reconciliation is not an option.
the elders can deny her.

firstly.
pack jesus away.
brew the poison.
ready the boiling water.
file the kitchen knife.
9pm he will return .
drunk and vulnerable.
wait for him.

tonight.
He goes to the morgue.

Child of heaven's womb

Child of heaven’s womb

Gauging the impossible task to its do-ability.

Child of heavens womb,

Take  mud,

Carve a body with it,

And blow a mantle of air into it.

From barren soil to life.

This is how from the ground,

the ahses regain life,

The most deeply dead

provoking the death within to go away.

Child of heaven’s womb,

This is how you operate.

This is how fame is taken to the stars,

how that red glow of love is taken to the heart,

How colour is taken to the dull,

How rain is taken to the dry crops,

how  rhythm is taken to the dance,

The beat to the music,

This is how the vision is taken to the dreamer,

How words reach the poet,

How the arrows reaches the target,

How mighty muscles are given to the weak.

How the traveller is taken to his destination,

How direction is given to the road,

 

This is who you are.

…through prayer and supplication.

This is how you do it.

Do it.