and if it"s not true

And if it’s not true,

Let me journey to the next horizon in my life

marriage, children, successful vocation & leaving a great legacy

let me dally in the busy-ness for a while

the lens stretches only to the sky

not beyond it…

the vision down here is eternally short.

Fumble

People said something.
About us. It was nice.
You and I though,
Whatever it was,
We let it go asunder.
We just never committed to it.
I interrogate the uncertainty of it,
How could it be so vaguely special?
How come we never said anything?
How come you just let me go? Just ‘carelessly fumble my heart… with your silence? Inspired by Trey Songz' fumble

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i will love the colors

''I will love the colors''

Kindness unmerited

Kindness unmerited, Love underserved, Nothing in me to warrant your affections, (A lack in me filled by nothing in this world.) You move mountains, Disintegrate the very dearest foundations, You consume the corruption in my heart, You bring me to myself, to realise my inadequacy to fight the foes. (A lack in me filled by nothing in this world) To stop working for your favour, But to behold the darling grace, And to relentlessly pursue it, To stop abusing earthly resources To garner out of them an ever diminishing joy. Save me from that evasive defeat. (A lack in me filled by nothing in this world) 2-Corinthians 1:9, Make me willing to learn, Make me willing to hear, That it is not by my strength But by yours that I overcome. Kind. Patient. Strong. Powerful. Saviour you are. The hope of nations

 

 

I’ll admit my weakness to the Lord ,

And tell him,

Scilla knows not how to fight the foes,

This to God alone, I will tell.

 

Coz’ I sense his compassion

Even if my woes (however seemingly little) do not merit it,

I know  that God understands,

God knows the complexities of my tears,

He knows that whatever trouble

If by not his strength,

Scilla cannot overcome,

I will weep, and pray for however long I want,

In his presence I will not feign strength,  

And exchange shallow smiles.

God's strength does not wear out,

God does not get tired,

I will go to him,

Day in and day out,

By the discipline he allows,

I will pray diligently to him.

Amen.

To be honest with self,

To concede my inadequacy,

To be vulnerable to the brokenness in me.

 

To be called for a purpose.

To thereby have limits and

To know where I am to tread.

 

To not be so concerned about self,

To love something outside the self.

To devote self to someone else

 

To stop searching for it in romance.

To stop searching for it in circumstances.

To stop searching for it in myself.

To stop searching for it, whatever it is.

But to find the source of it.

 

“Eternally fulfilled.

Eternally in love”

For this: to do whatever it takes.

To get up when the self falls,

To go after you

To know you…

Only by your strength,

 

A humble Amen.